I Love You Forever, Lord

With 2 months left in 2015, I can’t help but reflect on what this year has entailed thus far. It has been the most challenging. Losing my grandmother in April was a hard pill to swallow. She was like my mother. I moved in with her when I was in the 11th grade. My sister and I sacrificed relaxing in Panama City on Spring Break to take care of her during an illness period. We cooked for her. We cleaned and shopped for her. This was one of many sick spells, but through it ALL, she continued to have a praise on her lips. Seven days before her passing, I had just started a new career in a new industry. She wasn’t concerned with how much I made. She didn’t care if I worked in a fancy building. The one thing she wanted to know was.. Are you happy? I replied ,”Of course I am”. She nodded with the little strength she had left and said “Good, keep it that way.” Two days later, she died. 

I know that it was nothing but the grace of God that allowed me to stand at her funeral and offer encouragement to her six children and a crowd of loved ones. I could boldy say, ”We are going to be all right.” I knew her strength would carry me..us..and it will continue to. So, I press on. 

Not even a month later, my uncle lost his fight to cancer. I visited him before he transitioned. He knew he was leaving, but he was still so calm. Another hit, but I kept pushing. Maybe two weeks later, I come home to find my mother’s dog which I gave her 6 years ago had been poisoned with something. She tried to move her little body, but she couldn’t stand up. This went on for about a week. Watching the sweetest little dog in our family wilt was tough. She had to be put down.

I do not share my experiences to give power to the circumstances my family and I are enduring. I share this to show you that even in the midst of what has happened, there is a HIGHER Power who has kept me, who has given me indescribable peace, who has given me everything I needed to smile and continue to live the purpose He has for my life.

Whatever you’re dealing with, let me be your witness that GOD is BIGGER. He is everywhere. He is powerful. He is unshakable. He is rooted in truth. And that God lives in you. Yes, there are going to be periods of sadness. Allow them and continue to feed your soul with His love. 

Press On..